I asked God, when do I get a break ... when are You going to send me help or make things ease up for me; when am I getting my miracle? You told me to wait on you; well it has been 9 months and things seem to be getting harder ... I'm just giving and giving and giving; I have no more to give.
God said to me "just give thanks for what you do have and continue to wait on me". Not the answer I wanted but in that hearing from my heavenly Father I was encouraged knowing that He is with me. Even though He was putting me on my place, He is with me. He is with me, He is for me and He loves me. His grace is sufficient for me. His grace that carries me through and enables me to keep going when I really can't go on anymore; in those moments when I am physically, emotionally and spiritually empty. His grace that was with me even when I didn't deserve it; even when I got it wrong and when I messed up and made bad choices, when I was acting in a manner that did not bring glory to His name. When I was behaving in ways contradictory to the manner in which a daughter of the King behaves.
What exactly is this grace and what does it mean when people say "His grace is sufficient"?
GRACE IS GOD BRINGING, NOT ONLY HIS PRESENCE BUT ALSO HIS PARTICIPATION INTO OUR LIVES.
If we can just master the art of giving thanks and praising Him through the storms of life then I think it will make things a little easier and it will make the storms go by faster. It should be our natural reaction; to praise Him through the storms but it isn't easy to react above the feelings and emotions; and then for fun He still threw in estrogen and progesterone just to mess with us and make things more challenging... He has a sense of humour like that!
I kept asking God what is the lesson in this journey that You have me on. There have been so MANY lessons but I kept feeling like there is this one major revolutionary lesson that God is trying to teach me and yesterday I finally got it... UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. God is teaching me to love unconditionally - the way that HE loves us - after all it is one of the (if not THE) thing(s) He requires of us - to love real; they way HE loves. Not this give and take nonsense that the world has imprinted in our heads. Love is a verb, it is something you do and you keep doing regardless.
"So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him." 1 John 4:16
Abide is to accept or act in accordance with. You could say what John is saying here is that whoever acts in accordance to love, acts in accordance to God...
So the next time I complain about being on empty and feeling as though I have given all that I have to give; please remind me of this. There is no end to love. There is no such thing as giving too much or giving until there is nothing left because according to His great love for us it never ceases, never fails.
And so, as my daddy put me on my place just like that; in the end it gives me the boost I need as I am reminded of a promise in HIS word to not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.
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